19 September 2008
Oh and by the way...
I think I forgot to mention that a few days ago, I was told that the delivery of our solar panels had been delayed, so my transfer was also delayed. That's fine, really...it seemed to be coming to quickly for my liking. That, and I still get to study a bit more. They estimate I'll be out there in two weeks or so.
In other news, I had to take an AQ (Autism-Spectrum Quotient) test...it looks for the possibility of autism. The more intense forms are noticed at a young age, but the high-functioning form called Asperger's Syndrome is sometimes completely missed until well into adulthood. They suggested that I take it because I apparently have some "abnormal social behaviours" and "mild autistic qualities". According to the little handout I got on it, the test scores on 5 different areas, such as poor social skills and hyper-attention to detail...which is totally me. (The other 3 had something to do with attention span, communication skills and something else. I'm sory, I don't remember the last one.) Somewhere between 15 and 20 is a normal score, but it's above a score of 32 that "could indicate" Asperger's Syndrome. Above a score of 34 is an "extreme" case.
So I scored a 39 the first time. Without telling me the score or why, I was asked to take it again. I scored a 33. Then again, and I scored a 34. Now they want me to see a specialist and I'd really rather not. I don't know how accurate that test is, there's no way it can be a reliable diagnostic tool, and if I've survived my first 30 years in life this way, maybe it's not a big deal. It's not like there's a cure. Granted, I hate social situations, I don't like crowds, I don't understand the concept of emotion other than the most basic, and I big-deal the smallest detail and it must be implemented just-so. Are those autistic behaviours? Sure, maybe. But maybe not, and I certainly won't run out for an official diagnosis for the hell of it when I don't feel I'm impaired.
Besides, I looked up the autistic spectrum online and I really just don't think it describes me. Which is good, since I don't want another doctor to visit. Hahaha...yeah, like I need another diagnosis!